Despite my mood right now, i"m going to try to write an optimistic journal. I will say, however, that my doctor's remedy for my anxiety isn't working so far, so I may need to visit her again.


Good News;

I get to go to Japan this summer! It'll probably be late July or August. I guess it all depends on when my passport gets in. I kind of wish my Mom had paid extra to get the passport in early, but it's alright that she didn't. As long as I get to go, I'm fine. I can't complain, right?

I have a huge-ass suitcase too! It's SOOO freaking big! I wish all of you could see it. Man, it's going to be fun trying to pack that thing. I'm hoping I won't pack very much at all, that way, I can manage to save a lot of room for souveniers!

I think I'm going to cry when I get there. I've wanted to go for so long. My Aunt and Uncle are paying for the trip for graduation, and I'll be going with my Aunt. We're going to Tokyo and Kyoto, and I'm more than excited to go. I get to go see the museum I've wanted to see, as well as do some shopping. I'm going to need a job for that, but (sigh) money's so hard to come by right now. I'm really thankful my aunt and uncle are paying for my trip, and that my parents approved me going. I can't wait. I'm already anxious and a little scared. I need to start studying my Japanese again. I don't know very much at all. >< Enough to get by, I guess? Goodness... >< I really need to spend all of my free time doing that.

I guess i'll have plenty of time doing that while my passport is coming. Huh?

Anywho, for now, that's the news. I'm going to get up, and try to stop being so damn moody.
Apparently, Xanax doesn't work for me.

And...thanks Brenna, for being fucking lazy and not cleaning up the dog pee. T___T